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7月6日 jul 6This wk i experience the worst few hours of my life - I was unable to talk. Everytime i tried to open my mouth, others have to lip-read me. I can only express myself through hand actions and barely audible speech. Looking at others talk happily while i have to curb myself makes me feel very very sad...lol. Talking has always been my forte and losing it is very saddening. But look at the bright side, others at least have a chance to be free from my crappings and have peace in their ear. HaHaaa. But after 2 days of rest i have almost recover and the world has to take my chattering again. Good luck.
Even though i lost my voice during the camp but it was one damn camp loh.... missing it now liao. The GL have infinte energy and have also made alot of new friends. This is the beginning of my uni life and it certainly can only get better....wooo...... 6月28日 jun 28Was on my way home on a mrt when i saw a sad but common occurrences in our society.
The seat beside me become vacant and a kind lady immediately offer the seat to an old man. After a while, an old lady came in and i offer my seat to her. Regretted my action immediately as she had such a hard time sitting on the comfortable seat. This makes me wonder whether the seat has been too hot after i had sat on it. The last straw for the woman came when the man coughed and she immediately ran for the door. My first thought is that she will have no problem making it to the olympics, maybe the committe should review and consider adding her. To be fair, she alight on the next stop (maybe it is just not due to the man i was thinking). After this 'sprinter' left another woman occupy the seat. She too has problem seating comfortably in that seat. Now i start to believe that the chair is cursed OMG a cursed seat that will be some news. But miraculously the curse dissapeared once the old man left, the seat suddenly become comfortable again.
Is spore really so lacking in terms of courtesy to others who may be different from us? He may not be able to see our actions but does it matter. Maybe the govt can invoke a law prohibiting this kind of behaviour. Fined those who go against this law, this were confirm help improve our manners. But... 1月18日 jan 18it has been more than 2 wks have pass since i started relief teaching... have been both pleasant n unpleasant loh... same as all jobs.
e pleasant things is that i have a place to so called 'joke' ard when i m working.... tink nt muz job can give me this opportunity loh. e student oso quite fun if i m noth teaching.... seeing e childish ways make me recall i m abit like them in e past, maybe i m more obedient then ba....hahaa.
the unpleasant thing is tat when i m teaching they like to talk alot n tis make me unable to teach n have to shout n shout..... getting worse n worse liao, e students get less
n less afraid of me n now i need to shout shut up more times to have e same effect of a quieter class. was talking to another friend abt it n say tat mayb is retribution since during my time as a student we oso make sure tat teacher earn their money e hard way but being mischievous n talkative in class. now as a teacher now i kow e feeling they have then...sad...sad....sad....hahaa. but i prefer a class tat is interactive n nt some dead class tat when i talk i will hear echoes..... but e bad thing is tat e student do nt exert self control n they do not kow when to shut up n listen to e lesson. hopefully they can grow up fast enough or else i will have to borrow my vocal cord from someone else very soon liao..... 11月15日 nov 15saw something interesting 2 days ago but lazy to blog abt it until now......
first is e 'chope'... have heard alot abt it but today is e first time i m witnessing it first hand n so up close n wow they were a sight n it is a veri gd way unless u r e wan t finding a seat. there is something postive abt it..... tis shows tat sporean r civilised ppl since we will nt throw away e tissue n pretend tat e seat r hey 'unoccupied'.... sometimes have e urge to throw away e tissue n watch from one corner n c wat happen when e owner reutrn n find his BIG tissue missing..... n most important seat gone...
second thing i will call it e door syndrome. e door of our public transport seems veri attractive or mayb there r magnets attached to it which i may b ignorant of it or else how do u explain us human being attracted to it. maybe the air there is also freshersince when e door open fresh air flies in from all direction n being kiasu singaporean we will nt wan to lose out to others since all of us are paying e same fare. i have one suggestion is that to make e mrt non air con so tat all will have an equal opportunity to the fresh air when e train is moving..... ya n for those who love standing near e door they may also get an additional lesson in flying...lol 11月3日 nov 3veri happy tis few days loh.... bcos finally going to ORD... e 3 big letters i have been waiting for one yr n ten months. now thinking back it seems quite fast loh...hahaaa. after ord now is to wait for rod in 10 years time.... n ippt for 20 yrs n mayb RT.......sian loh
on thur night our coy wreck havoc loh....playing until abt 1... i peace loving guy oso kena camo cream n powder over me n underwear oso kena tear...first time since i go over to kaffir... hav to admit tat kaffir is e most no govt coy loh..... dunno who started e tradition of tearing underwear loh, nt fun loh...hahaa. initially tot tat nt joining them i will nt be attacked but nt tat case, they feel tat tis fun shld b enjoy by everybody n no one should be left out so i kena, but nt tat bad oso la at least gt some present b4 ord loh....hahaaa
after ord oso dunno do wat liao..... ord mean unemployment hahaaa but at least i can be a human again, no more yes sir or sgt liao....f tis.....
9月9日 sep 9getting veri blur tis few months.....
tink today is e 2nd time i tak e wrong bus in 3 mths liao..... dunno y will tak e wrong bus since i hav taken e bus so often. i tink veri long but still cant get e ans... lol. mayb realli go ns become stupid liao. cant even differentiate between numbers. tinking of it i feel tat sometimes when we encounter things tat we r veri familiar wif, we tend to go with our instinct and just like what happened to me today i got it wrong. this shows that when we take things for granted, the outcome may not be what we have expected initiallly.
from now on, i m going to take a closer look at the bus number and hopefully i will not board the wrong bus again next time...hahaa 9月3日 sep 3feeling really frustrated just now so wan to vent it out by blogging....
does having power makes a person lost track of hinself or is it because e person have enough of e nonsense dish out to him by both his superior n subordinate tat y it is very difficult to control e anger tat has been suppressed. even though ppl alway say tat different matters have to be treated differently but how many of us can say for sure tat we practice wat we preach. to me this is just a small metter and there is no reason for e flare up but e person may feel tat i m disregarding his authorityor maybe he did it as a warning to others n too bad i m e unlucky one. we oso tend to take advantage of ppl who are nice to us tat y by being too nice is actually making urself in a disadvantage situation.... 7月7日 jul 7today is 7th july 2007 ala 777. a day where many couple will remember it as a day when they gt married. but tis date has a more important mission, it is to let e world know abt global warming and e effects on us or our future generation if we do not make changes to our current way of living. one person is neither too small or big to make significant changes but e one person is veri important as others will start to take notice of e one person n hopefully they will follow e one person lead. is is not possible for globalisation n environment to work hand in hand? is it always true tat one must be sacrifice for the cause of the other? judging by the way tat things hav happened, sadly this seems the case and i feel that is not going to change in the near future.
how muz effect does the convert in 9 cities, 7 continents have on us is unknown and ideally more people will become more aware of this problem. wil it be the same as before after the concert or will the world finally stand up and decide to tackle the problems themselves instead of relying on miracles... watching the shanghai leg of the show, i wondered why so mani of the stars were missing, maybe all of them were getting married on this day. is it because they feel that there is no benefits to it or even they feel that they are too small to do anything... mayb they really hav other committments that are more important than this... i also have no right to say others as i m blogging now...hahaa 6月29日 jun 29today is a friday but i can b blogging bcos off today.. trying to give us some incentives b4 e final hurdle. too late ba, all of us hav already seen thru their plot liao...hahaa. they shld b thougtful right fr e start n nt onli when they needed us...typical human loh.
is it true tat work is done onli when seen by others...a very questionable statement juz lik in terms of phy where work is only done when e object u r exerting force move....tat y alot ppl say tat u hav to work smart nt work hard as e result may differ by alot. i totally agree wif this statement as time n time this has been proven right be it in work or study.... 6月16日 jun16we are always arguing abt who did e most work and e conclusion is alway e same; only i m doing work while others r lazing ard. this situation is more evident in large organisation since ur superior r nt able to monitor everyone. tis lead to e unhappiness felt among those lower down since they feel that others r nt putting in effort tat is required of them. as most ppl r lazy, once u c tat others can get off being slack u will oso slack liao....finally as nobody do work all will die together, then fingers will start pointing. fortunately there r still some ppl left who r willing to do more work than others n hopefully they wont persist to do e end n help change those who r born to slack.....
today saw a very interesting article in TNP, now then understood y chi like e number 8 during wedding.... if u turn e 8, it will look lik a handcuff n tat y ppl like to give out hongbao wif 888888888888888888......hahaha 6月3日 jun 3a long time since i last update my blog....tis nite where alot of emotions n thinkings fell onto me n i shall use tis to express it out...
as i was on e mrt home juz now, something came over me and make me tink of things tat i hav never thought of in e past..
1. am i happy or i am happy so as to hide my sadness.....i do not know the ans n hopefully i will get an ans very soon or else i may lose myself sooner.
2. when i m alone i start to tink of all tis shit n tat is y i hate to b alone since i do not have an ans to all this prob but which i feel that is impotant n shld nt b ignored
3. alot of thigns we see may not b wat it actually represet. hence sometimes, without understanding e whole picture, in a moment of anger or rashness we say things which will hurt others even if it is not our intetntion initially.
4. not happy with wat u have does it means that u r sad?? i do not know but i kow that i m happy with not being happy since i will strive to make myself happier n if u r totally happy mean tat things has become transient and congrats to u since u r near buddha already....
i feel that i m a boat tat is drifting aimlessly but e gd thing is tat when i wake up n c e sun i kow tat a brand new day is waiting for me, tis gives me hope until i finish e day n start to tink tat tmr will b even better. tat is y a person's life is e most difficult things tat anyone is going to live, hence thumbs up to all my friends who are still stuggling along with me and hopefully all of us are able to find our true identity instead of living in others shadows...... 1月2日 jan 022007 has finally come n onli left 11 mth of long ns liao...sian. wat has 1 yr of ns did for me, nth muz beside making me bcome more stupid n more selfish ba.... veri diff to imagine how can i cope when i enter u in 2008. hav to do alot of self revision b4 entering u liao. had a jc bbq last sat, nth special except for some of e lame games aloy tink of....lol. neber write down my thoughts for e others since too lazy liao, nowadays veri lazy to even do some thinking or hold a pen. 2 of my friend commented tat my maths has deteriorate, hav to agree wif them ba nt onli my math, tink everything has gone down hill n brain cant turn fast liao. went to esplanade for e new yr countdown but e irony is tat there is no countdown sia. e fireworks went off b4 e 5...4...3...2...1. dunno wat happen mayb e person accidentally set off e fireworks then no choice liao... beside e 12 fireworks, all those b4 it sux loh then somemore rain then hav to find shelter. e route r blk here n there so hav to take a detour everytime n it certainly spoil my mood sia. went to watch death note 2 yest, e plot veri nice n e twist is unexpected loh. a veri gd show for me. spend quite alot over e wkend n hopefully my pay will increase since heard tat ns recruit pay now 450 liao...hahaa 12月16日 dec 16tis whole wk hav to attend mg course...sum miracle happen n i maange to pass it after slogging thru it for 2 days loh. both hands feeling e pain after during n after e course...hopefully dun nid to go for e range or else veri troublesome n summore muz go outfield. tehn fri get a super xiong pt session, arms,abs,bak still aching till now...then tis wkend then mayb still gt turn out, sat has passed n it neber happen. juz praying tat it will nt happen tmr or else... wat can i do..hahaa.
they say tat u wont lose ur freedom but i now cannot plan muz liao since 1 hr is too little for me to get bak to camp loh if i go too far away...mayb shld go lot 1 to shop on sat n sun so if call bak than confirm can mak it one loh...juz wonder y sum ppl so lucky but e at least i m nt e worst of all nsf ba....can onli comfort mself liao.
e asian games end liao, spore get 8 gold n e gold medalists r muz richer now than they will b4 e games, especially e ssa loh...5 golds. after doing so well expectation r high such tat they can finally get an olympic gold after a long wait....hav to wait untill 2008 to c whether they will flourish or die down... 12月10日 dec 10onli 1 word to describe tis wk...bz. tink onli at most 1 day get to sleep 7 hr. running abt trying to check tis n tat. if everytime standby oso tis bz than die liao...hopefully it will get less bz or else diff to tahan...i tink they tink tat signallor veri free one alway gt spare time to make room for new things, cant c other ppl do more admin thigns than us...tis standby so mani guard duty to do loh...sian...summore no compensation sia. hav anniversary on fri went on a heritage trail in e morning.... than eat porridge, sweet potato,banana n h2o in e afternn a weird combination loh...nth muz to say abt it juz tat ppl last time veri strong loh. whre we go for heritage trail...2 parks, ford factory.. love e factory e best bcos fully aircon hahaa than e 2 parks veri hot sia than run here n there(others) lik amazing race...lol. e best things cum at nite where we finally hav a gd meal in camp but cater in fr outside....e performance put up is nt bad cast aside e idol part...hahaa. get to bk out on tat day...luckily no rt on sat... went to sum jap restaurant wif my family for sat afternn lunch..gt alot of variety but tink i did nt eat alot since sum dun dare touch..hahaa. gd food if u r a jap frantic ba...for me is juz k loh.... 12月3日 dec 3e day which blk leave ends...how demoralising, tis also means tat it is our turn for standby, mroe guard duty n wkend burn. but tis wk blk leave gt gd moments n oso fuk up times... gd when i went out to sing whole nite wif my friend n fuk up when hav to go bak camp especially on thur nite for e supposingly day guard, it turn out to b a nite guard something even worse...e 1 wk blk leave seems to pass veri fast sia, now dun tink can get used to e army life again liao...haha. hopefully next wk will relax loh n can bk out on fri. gd thigns is tis whole yr no more outfield liao...but hope they dun call bak.. 11月18日 nov 18tis wk has been nt bad..juz tired.no outfield n summore early nite off on wed. but get a bad news is tat going to activate soon so veri sian...hav to rush bak within 2hr, y cant they help to reimburse out cab fare..hahaa. tink going to burn alot of wkend n public holiday liao...sux. y cant army b more welfare....all of us hav a life to live. juz realise tat leaning to drive now is a bad idea since dunno gt time to go for lessons due to e fuk up uncertainty..$50 or .....how to pass sia...sian...so muz $$ at stake n i onli earn 500 1 mth.
tis wk oso anounce e increment of gst to 7% next yr....nt gd news i guess ba...hopefully mayb can get sum $$ to help me since low income family loh...$500 per mth.....hopefully govt wont increase until like europe country or else it will b veri diff to live when old liao.....if wan ppl to give birth than increase cost of living who will wan to give birth lol.....
n liverpool erally sux loh...kena tok 3:0 by arsenal..dunno wat they doing loh....everytime lose to big teams in epl.... 11月11日 nov 11long time since i last blog liao..veri bz lately to blog loh.
tis wk sux since 3d2n outfield than i summore double as a runer, running abt wif e heavy manpack. e worst is squatting wif it, so muz pressure on my thigh n knee, dun tink my knee can recover if tis continue...all thanks to bso for nt transferring me out. everytime prone down my helmet ike fall forward sia than veri troublesome loh, wan to stand up after prone also veri xiong. tink w/o ippt gold being a runner can kill loh. beside e running e mosquito can also kil sia, t least kena bite 50 plus times loh. e most iritating thing tat u can hear at nite is e buzzing of e mosquito. they dun come in ones or twos but in a battalion sia...lol. after a wk on xiong trainin still hav rt on sat, y cant they juz give up on being e best unit n care for our welfare but cing hq bk out on sat at least compensate abit loh...hahaa.
even though onli left 1 yr in ns but dont even hav any sense of happiness loh, tink bcos 1 yr is alot sia365 days-365*24*60*60sec..... e pink ic date is getting nearer but e training is getting more xiong...haizzzz
being in ns raelly is shut out from e outside world...dunno muz abt wat is going on in e world now....everyday is juz training n summore training. but there is alway tmr to lk forward to but tmr is bk in day so....lol 10月21日 oct 21now getting more n more lazy to blog liao so e frequncy is now 2 wks once...anyway oso nth muz to blog abt. tis wk clear 2 days off so wk pass quite fast but on fri everybody bk out liao than we bk out muz ltr, dunno y we stay for...waste so muz time idling ard. fri had a super xiong pt la, tis morning upper body still aching loh...tink 2 long neber do pt liao. saw e scuky training schedule on fri, going to spend alot of wkend in camp liao, y cant saf juz folow govt 5 day work wk, e regular oso nid to go home n reproduce loh.....next wk oso gd since 2 gt 2 day off thanks to our racial diversity, cant imagine if we onli hav 1 race loh than 1 yr holiday is so little liao.
saw e IR bids tis wk...e ideas seems veri interesting n unique, swimming wif sharks,artificial coral reef...mayb e IR is nt tat bad after all if we put aside e casino. new places of attraction for both locals n tourist. hopefully e economic gains can b far greater than e social ills. shld kow by 2010 liao.
having a veri bad sore throat since last wk loh muz b due to e stupid haze..y cant e haze go away making me feel sick all ard. summore no rain than cannot help to wash e haze..... 10月7日 oct 07tis wk had been outfield wk sia....3 OF in 1 wk, luckily i had da guard on tue or else hav to go for all 3 liao.....but e OF enables me to master sleeping in a moving vehicle...lol. cant inmagine how i manage to sleep in such rough condition. dunno in e future do i still hav to go anot, hopefully dun nid since really pointless in bringing me out juz to sit in e vehicle for exra weight, i oso cant really troubleshoot if a problems coops up so no pt in me going there to eat sand. when e vehicle move is lik sandstorm sia, dunno how e regular manage to get thru wif so muz sand going into their body. tink in e future e land bcome lower liao since all e sand there is in our body...lol. hopefully after all tis end liao gt alot offs sia or else veri sian loh, mayb 2 wks off, seeing hq bk out so early everytime than did nt do muz veri demoralising loh. next wk still gt 1 or mayb 2 OF, hopefully 1 n it will b a short one. wif so muz practice i tink it is veri diff to mess up loh, if onli co think like tis..lol
today e haze prob veri chiam loh, so blur sia. after such a long time it is still nt possible to solve e problems of razing forest than we every yr hav to endure tis prob...mayb tis will reduce e amt of PT but hope tat it wont affect e training schedule n we hav to cum bak on wkend. e haze is causing me to hav a sore throat, veri uncomfortable loh. hopefully e wind direction will change so tat e smoke will go elsewhere ba... 9月23日 sept 23tis wk go for a 2d 1n outfield, a long time since i stay out in e field at nite. wat a bad experience even more chiam than bmt, did nt sleep muz n e mosquito biet as though there is no tmr....most of us kena alot bite ard our body, tink e mosuqito is mutate so tat they can bite thru our no 4...really f loh. hopefully tis will b e last time at tat place. other time in camp did nt do muz loh...juz clear e store loh....lucky oso dun nid to go for e fri ex. stay in camp n slack. but e ex on fri end late so can onli bk out on sat morning then mon hav another ex so sun hav to bk in earlier....than still hav to do e board loh...troublesome
tis wk another person say i dun lk cum from jc n another say last wk i hav e smoker lk...lol. dunno liddat gd anot. mayb next time go out if wan to lk guai shld waer e nerdy spec loh since liddat can hide e ah beng lk..hahaa. mayb plastic surgery can oso do e work...hahaa |
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